Tough week

Well this week has been a hard week and I of course try to be strong and try to do everything by myself, lets start back to Tuesday of last week, I went to Bible study and while there I knew something was not right and came home and realized yes something was not right went to bed trying not to think about it (I am leaving out gory details) I was up all night and knew something was just not right well got up Wednesday morning got Matty off to school, daycare kids started arriving and I was doing fine well I was sitting on couch and another something is not right moment and it went downhill from there. I had kids picked up and I called Dr and went to get blood work done and well passed out at the Lab twice yep not fun I even had Ash with me. Then went to my moms for the rest of the day yes it was a rough day, on Friday went back to Dr and confirmed Miscarriage, I did not know I was pregnant I was suspicious though that I was but when all this started I knew it was just not normal. I tried to be strong, Brandon left for a retreat on Thursday so my trips to Dr was by myself I was fine with that, I try to be tough but I lost it Saturday I shed a few tears, we went to Tyler this weekend for my nephews 6th birthday and to see my new neice which was fantastic to get away and get to be with family but I was ready to be home and with Brandon since it had been a rough week. I was reminded many times this week of the plan God has for us and I am in awww of that and how He is with us each step of the way. I also have great friends and family that has been Praying for us. Couple of verses that have been on my mind this past week John 15:7 and Romans 8:18 says"For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be reavealed to us." and then John 15:7 says "If you abide in me, and my words abide in you, ask whatever you wish, and it will be done for you." He may not answer us right away but He has a plan and we must abide in Him. God takes great pleasure in us having time with Him each day and I try so hard to take that time and pray and listen to Him. I told Brandon I dont know if I need to have a good cry or sleep (have not slept in several days) and he said I need time. This is the beginning of a new week and I am happy and blessed in so many ways and am looking forward to what God has for me each and everyday this week and the weeks ahead.